Recently, I
hit the big SEVEN FIVE And to quote the fictional character Rocksy Hart from
the rollicking musical Chicago, I’m older than I ever expected to be! Of
course, I feel that way about any birthday with a zero or five at the end. Plus,
the last ten years have been sped by like a missile!
I feel like
I’m on the fast track to the crematorium.
Ten years ago,
this month I was touring Thailand. One of two countries which I was considering
expatriating; but decided against for a long list of reasons. However, that
trip feels like it happened just last year. It’s still fresh in my memory. I remember
every detail, which is amazing since nowadays I have difficulty recalling what
I cooked for dinner the night before.
And it feels
as if my father died only five years ago, when in fact it has been twenty-five.
Sadly, the
older one gets, the faster time passes as the end grows ever nearer. These are
the years I would rather slow down!
I read an
online article comparing this to reading a novel. When you are young, the story
is fresh, and everything is surprising, and exciting. Later, when you are
older, you read the same story again. But this time, you know what to expect
and zoom thru it.
That’s a
great analogy. However, even at my age, life is still filled with surprises,
but most of them are unpleasant. Unfortunately, more bad things happen in life than
good. And the ones that blindside you are the worst!
If I could
turn back the clock, I wouldn’t. My life has been too gruesome; with too many things
I’d never want to relive again.
Each day, I
live fully in the present, trying to make the best of it, because every moment
of it is now precious.
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